I’m in the process of transition. Everything seemingly is spiraling out of control. I’m getting lost .. And that brings about hopelessness. However I’m choosing to hold on to the mere thought of being still. I have no control of the external adversity, yet I do have control of my internal peace. I read a lot so I’m very familiar with the above statement. I began this journey by asking simple questions, to let’s say the inner me.
So how does this stillness thing work? I question… Should I just sit here? Stillness answers ..yes you should. Hmmm. I think.. Really, what will just sitting here do? Calmly, stillness speaks, just sit there. Well isn’t that irresponsible?
Stillness answers.. No it’s not.
I think… Stillness responds .. Stop thinking..
Outrageous! I exclaim, what do you mean stop thinking. Honey .. Stillness is your friend.
If everything is moving …you’ll move with it. You are apart of everything, don’t resist it.
I’m apart of everything, well it sure doesn’t feel like it.
Tell me, why do you feel like you aren’t apart of everything, the entire make up of life is all for you, how could you not be apart of it?
None of the things that surrounds me are apart of me or for me. It seems like everything is working against me. Let me give you some examples. Time. Im always late. Money. I don’t ever seem to have enough. Space. Never enough. Freedom. Please I feel so stuck. And Love lastly.. Is very limited here, I don’t even trust people.
Stillness responds are u done?
Yes I presume.
All of the things mentioned are your thoughts, You are making what you feel, true to you.
Well .. It is! Stillness responds no honey it isn’t.
What’s up with you calling me honey? I questioned.. Stillness response , haha your sweet .. Just like honey, I know you personally.. And your sweetness sticks to all those whom you will and have ever encountered.
I’m at a lost for words, but back to this stillness thing; are you stillness?
I stillness am here with you always. I to am apart of you.
You to are apart of me. Explain that please.
I am here, always have been, always will be from the beginning of time.
Why we need it …..??
We need it because it fills us. Every empty space is filled with love so as long as you let it.
Imagine that, four letters that makes up 1 word,
When used in the right context
can change a whole force field.
How is that possible!?
It’s possible because we we’re created in Love
from Creation to Conception
intimacy is a powerful use of love
& we desire it ..we crave it… We do all sorts of perplexed things for the fufillment of Love!
Its a high like no other ….I am officially addicted to it.
I live to be a advocate for Love!
Late start to my Monday but it’s 7am and I’m wide awake …the weather is crappy so I’m not to excited to travel, however the case I’m making my way to the work place.
I never know what the day holds for me, but I’m ready to embrace it with open arms.
Little did I know today would be my lucky day!
Since the weather is rainy I’ve decided to wear an old rain coat I have in my closet which I haven’t worn for years …& to my surprise inside a pocket was 1 golden key.
I have no recollection of this keys and I’m wondering what does it give me access to.
Then in a sudden moment of stillness… I become aware…that this key that I now hold is the key….it’s the key to the white building in which mental freedom lies.
I finally have access to the golden key !!
Everyone here is in a time warp stuck in the unconscious of their beings
Different roles are played by the day…….
First I have to be a mother than I have to be a friend ..now I have to be a wife
A friendly co worker
When in all reality, I would just like to BE….
Who the hell am I?
& When did I get lost ?
All my answers will be answered finally…
Today the unknown will be made known. I have finally been granted ..the key that will change everything!
Prayers were answered & the heavens have opened up!
I’m going to take this priceless golden key and open the door to Mental freedom.
No longer will I be in bondage, Mental freedom comes with everlasting joy and peace.
When your mind reaches such a state …your existence becomes worth it …
Here I’ll find a place of no worries or sorrows …can you say Bliss!!!
I’ve been seeking this freedom for so long ..but the key was lost and to my surprise today is the day it has been found!
If I ever knew the search would be so simple …I thought my day would be the same ..but nope not today ..
Today with this key in my hand I am enlightened to the possibilities that life has to offer me.
Life, I turned 30 last month, and even though I’d say my awakening (to what life meant to me) happened at 24(roughly) …I find my self (unidentified with ego) sitting here wondering ….what’s it all for?
Every Morning I awake (gratefully of course)..preparing my self for the hustle and bustle of my day. I go to a job that I feel no longer fulfills me spiritually or physically …(however it pays the bills..(so I assume) because bills are always due (lol)…
After work I sit in a classroom and absorb information, that I hope will pay off in the end.. You know benefit me in more ways then being knowledgable in a particular subject.
Then finally it’s 10pm and I’m back in my apartment thankful for a completed day until tomorrow.
Is this all life is?
I sit and I wonder …. & I’m convinced that it’s not! This robotic type of living is not living at all. It draining and silly. Now I know maybe one would say, the strides I’m taking are steps towards a greater future, & though that maybe my goal …. It sure as heck doesn’t feel like it. Why would I want to waste so much of my time doing things that aren’t making me happy, is what I questioned ..? What is allowing me to be stagnated when it comes to choosing to do things in my life that brings me joy.
Why am I & so many others, so paralyzed when it comes to taking a step into the unknown for the sake of familiarity?
I imagine life to be a freeing experience, where everyday is not the same (even though in technicality it’s not) but the day wouldn’t look the same or feel the same.
Where deposits of joy & laughter are often. A day that is not filled with nothingness, a day that one will grasp the full understanding of life.
So now the question becomes how do I attain the above? How do I find joy in every different day of life and soak it up in it’s presence and acknowledge it?
Life is all for experience! Your life.Your Journey. Your experience.
The key is to experience what you yearn to experience with your life!
Be Fulfilled…your life is waiting on you!